Felt kinda guilty cos' I didn't spend enough quality time with my lil' notti boy who has been calling out to me about his busy schedule that's upcoming next week onwards... I am a BAD gf.. No No.. Slap Slap Slap~
YAYAYA.. I was kinda selfish to indulge in my own pleasure, comfort & enjoyment having to have been kinda neglecting him esp. Fri when I was at TD... made my promise to call him after class... but called him in actual fact to inform him I was going out with my friends... Guess B must have felt jilted for that moment.. *I am Sobbing now for him*.. To be fair to myself.. I'm actually not a bad GF cos' I tried to call and sms my honey in midst of my every enjoyment.. so that he wouldn't feel left out.. or I had forgotten about his existence... isn't it..
Hmm.. ya.. contradicting myself again. I just love to Think! :X HAHA.. I'm not a bad gf Afterall, ya???
Sometimes, I really wonder am I ready for commitment... When I think I am, I will go into it, I will try to give my 101% of what I have and try my best to love him...
When I encounter hiccups here and there, I'll get up and try and try and try and try and try again till I'm so tired, I'll just get so demoralised and would stop progressing for that very moment. It's kinda extreme... If I love you, I love you 101% ... VICE VERSA... If I don't love you, I'll hate you to the core. HAHA... scaring my baby here... Na.. I'm not so bad... I'm someone with a heart, at least, with a rational mind. :>
I used to keep problems to myself and will erupt one very day.. But now with this channel of anger venting and my close friends.. I do more often than not, release my anger and confide my feelings to them... Now having an understanding BF, we lay our disagreements on the table, thrash things out, kiss and make out. :) I like that... rather than keeping things to myself...
Just don't really like b's remarks sometimes that leaves me hanging for a truthful reply. He just enjoys testing my patience... don't know why. HMPH. Anyway he's been a good boy.. Mum seems to like him more... esp. his JOY in eating my mum's homecooked food, his Mother's Day Tiramisu and his time for me to keep me company @ home... keke.
Tmr's MONDAY.. Damn... Gonna have my blues again. :I Shall chat with my beloved later, after completing this online graffiti...
"Gdnite b..(Nite Nite.. sweet dreams) U too.. Muaks.."
The Road Is Long...
It's Longer Than I Thought It Is At First...
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